Knock Knock, Who's There?

What do you do when your past knocks at your door?

Do you pretend you are not home? Do you grab something sharp and pray that when it comes you can make it go away? Do you face up to it with your chin up?

Im not so sure what to do when mine knocks, because the main thing about my past is that it is mostly lies, deceit and events I would rather not remember ever again.

I doubt whether anybody would disagree with me. I keep asking why when it approaches me.

I need a sign to put my sights forward again, all the questions of what if just keep appearing.

I have never been able to understand why people can be as cruel and misunderstanding as I have seen, including myself. But I felt all the actions I took to make things some how heal up, were full of forgiveness and mercy.

I only wish I knew what my 'enemies' were thinking so that I could protect myself and those that I love.

Who do you trust when you just are not sure anymore? Yourself?

When you want things to be better so badly, it always seems to go slower. Do you start not to care? Do you really on your instincts and just take major steps...but that seems irresponsible and impulsive.

Why do we care so much about what people think?

Can you hear voices calling you to sway certain ways to avoid troubles or mistakes, but it all seems so hard and then you have to give up?

I hate starry nights, what do you hate?

Not Just For Yours Truly...